Welcome All My Wonderful Readers

This is my 1^st blog here on Lanacia Marie Candle Co, and instead of making this a structured writer’s post like I normally do, I want this to be an introduction to you all about my small home scents business. So let’s connect through these words.

If you have stumbled upon my website, then that means you either found me through my Instagram, my YouTube channel, a market in New York, or through a simple Google search. And before I get into my story, I want to say that no matter where you’ve come from, I appreciate you stopping by to visit. It’s the little things in life that matter so much more to me in a world full of chaos and masks.

Now, let’s get to know my small business and me a little bit more. Don’t worry, I won’t make this a novel, LOL. So where do I begin? Well, first let me start by saying hi, my name is Tamaru, and I live with major depressive disorder and social anxiety. Major Depressive Disorder means that my depression is persistent and lasts longer than the allocated two weeks that therapists and psychiatrists measure. Which is why I’ve taken on the term of saying that I live with depression and not suffer from it because I’ve taken the steps to manage it, but understand that it’s never really gone.

With that being said, the reason I shared that with you, those reading this, is because it’s the reason behind why I started my small business back in 2023. In 2021, I had a mental breakdown one day while getting ready for work. I’d never had one before, and it scared me because I always knew what I was capable of doing years ago, but didn’t know what I would be capable of doing within that moment, surrounded by all those negative emotions, if that makes some sense.

And the weeks following, being at work made it no better because my job was not willing to give me the time I needed to bounce back. So, I left. It was my first time leaving a job in all my years without having something lined up or getting something soon after. And I remember going to my doctor, and he told me that I needed time to reset. So, I did for a whole year, and every day was a struggle to get out of bed, to do things I enjoyed, or to focus on myself like before.

But I knew in that moment that I had been there once before. And knowing all the work that I put into myself before this moment in my life, I didn’t want to fall back into that dark cloud. So, I turned to something that was always an escape for me, no matter how bad things got…my creativity. And that’s where candle making came into my life.

What started as not just a new hobby, because God knows I have a ton of them, ended up being a way to bring me back. Back to a road that I had found and was not ready to give up on. So, day by day, I watched a ton of YouTube videos because anyone who truly knows me knows that I research for days and weeks before I jump deep into something. And I learned so much over a few months that it was time to get myself a candle-making kit.

And yes, I went on to Amazon, read reviews, did more research, and got my first kit. I made my first candle in January of 2023, and I was hooked. I went back to researching different waxes, containers, fragrances, the do’s and don’ts of candle making, and so much more. I threw myself into it and tested candle after candle, wick after wick. And along the way, I mapped out a ‘what if’ document in Microsoft Word.

Before I knew it, my document grew into pages that mapped out a fictional candle business. My candles performed better (SO MUCH trial and error), and by the end of 2023, I made the scary choice and took the leap of making it official. I knew if I was going to step out of my comfort zone and do this, I had to do it right.

Now, along the way, my candles were not just a project. They gave me a reason. A reason to get out of bed, wipe my tears away on those rough days, sit in calmness, and just experience my little creations. But most importantly, it started to wake me up, and slowly I was returning back to that road that I once was on. I learned how much the ambience of a flame and the pleasant scent of each one aligned my mental health. It allowed me to experience the bad feelings, but not stay with them.

And that’s what I wanted to bring to others. I know you’re probably saying, “Tamaru, it’s just a candle.” But it’s more than that when you light it, sit back, and just let go. And I hope that I can bring that same feeling and clarity to those who purchase any of my products, not because I’m now a business owner but because I don’t want anyone to feel that they can’t get out of the darkness.

I’ve learned that it’s often the small and simple things that have the most profound effect on our lives. So, that’s what I hope to give to those who purchase anything from Lanacia Marie Candle Co… That small, simple thing that triggers that profound effect.

~ Tamaru